Happy?

Sometimes I think Happiness is an illusion. Today in what should have been a very happy day turned to more self doubt, pessimism. Don't get me wrong, I am happy to have a job, one that pays, and one that I atleast know when it's going to end. But when I was sitting there going through the training I couldn't help but think "Is this my life?" Well yes it's my life. But it's not all I want my life to be.

I feel like my life has been stagnant for a long time. Even before I left for grad school I felt stuck. Part of it was me because I became complacent in my work and situation. So I went to grad school, completed my degree, and came home. When I graduated I felt like everyone, that I could take over the world. Until I got home and got stuck in what seemed like the never ending cycle of cover letters, applications, resumes, and rejection. Then the worst happened and I got complacent in joblessness. It sucked and I got depressed. Eventually I slowly began to crawl out of it, I found my motivation. Things turned around when I got a job offer, but I can't help but feeling like I'm going to be stuck in complacency again.

That's not what I want. That's not what I want out of life. It's not why I went to school. I've never been a glass half empty girl. I'm always the one motivating my friends, and anyone else who needs it. Why I can't seem to talk myself into that same motivation I don't know. I want to be happy.

I's got a job

Well today I done something I haven't done in almost 6 months. Went to work. That's right, I HAVE A JOB! Well just to be clear, it's a temporary holiday job that I applied for a month a half ago. Yes they finally called me Tuesday evening and asked me to start on Thursday. Given the date and what I was told in the interview I was happy, not overjoyed because I could be wrong but the job may only last 2 weeks. Now don't get me wrong I'm happy to be working because that means I will have some income. It's been a long time since I got a paycheck.

So being that today was my first day of work in a long time, I'm going to give you some tips on how to make your first day of work run smoothly.

1. Pick out your outfit at least 2 days in advance.

I had to have tried on three outfits before I finally settled on one.

2. Eat Breakfast.

Even if your not a morning person, or you don't eat breakfast period, eat it that day. Why? Because it's nothing worse than standing there trying to concentrate on what your being told, and the whole time you can't because your praying you don't pass out from hunger.

3. Put your keys in your purse.

It will save you time in the morning.

4. Find your passport and bring it with you, and a cancelled check.

It will also save you time when filling out those new hire forms.

5. Check the weather.

This mostly applies to ppl who live in cities with horrible traffic. For example in Atlanta even the mere mention of rain means that traffic will be so much worse than it already is. Don't let it be winter and the threat of snow, the entire city will shut down. DOWN!!

These are all things that can be done before your first day. Of course my list was longer, but I'm tired and can't think anymore.